28 10 / 2013
"Coming home to someone is many things. It is a literal action, an abstract idea, a physical feeling. It is more than the sound of the key turning in the door and the voice that calls from the porch. It is a choice, a promise, a declaration. It is a return, not as a person to a place, but as oneself to another. It is one individual saying to another: ‘You are the one I choose’."
17 7 / 2013
we’ve all got that weird pretty big secret that we don’t really hide but like we don’t flaunt it like “My brother died of cancer” or “I’m gay” or “I tried to kill myself last year” or anything really and when you find out somebody’s big plot twist you know you’re in this friendship for the long run
28 5 / 2013
There are three things I want you to learn how to say.
“I love you”
and don’t just say it as an empty phrase,
say it with feeling,
say it to every person who comes to mind when you think of those three little words.
I know it’s scary,
I know it’s difficult,
but open yourself up
and shout it.
don’t say it under your breath,
when you love someone,
whether platonically or romantically,
it deserves to be shouted from every rooftop.
There will be some people in your life
that come in and just wreck everything,
they mess up your plans,
they hurt you,
and make you feel less than what you are,
so please learn how to say goodbye to them.
But I also want you to learn how to say goodbye
to even the people you want to stay.
not everyone stays,
and saying goodbye is like setting someone free,
and it won’t always come easy,
and it won’t always come without heartbreak,
but not everyone stays,
and it will do you a world of good to learn how to tell them
“I am worth it.”
there will be waves of sorrow in your life,
and you will feel as if you were the sand that the tide carries away,
you will feel as if it carries away your worth
it will feel like you are the left over rubble of a building
that had been burned down,
and you will feel less,
but please learn to say these words.
say them in the mirror when you have just woken up,
say them when your lover turns their back on you,
say them when you are opening up the refrigerator
and please, believe them.
You are more than sand that can just be washed away,
and you are more than just a few pieces of broken cement,
you are worth it.
16 4 / 2013
April is a difficult time for the Hokie community. On April 16th 2007, 32 of our fellow Hokies were killed in what is now considered the worst school shooting in United States history. I still remember this day like it was yesterday.
I remember I had woken up at 5 a.m. to work on some chem recitation homework due by the end of the day. I remember walking to my 9 a.m. class still under the fog of sleep. I remember the frigid cold and the cutting wind as I trudged across the drillfield. I had no idea that by the time my class ended, that I would be plunged headfirst into a cold reality that to this day I have trouble reconciling with.
It is still hard for me to equate this place, this place that has fed my soul and turned me into the woman I am today, with such violence. IT is even harder to realize that our loved ones are truly gone. When people ask me if I knew anyone who died that day, they don’t expect my answer of yes. yes I knew people. Most people don’t realize that in a school so large (almost 30 thousand if you include graduate students and faculty), everyone knew someone.
That is the type of community we are, we live up to our motto Ut Prosim-That I may serve. We take pride in our community service, we take pride in the small acts of kindness and generosity that make us who we are. If you were to ask any one student, they would be able to list the multitude of organizations and activities they are involved with on campus. This is the Hokie community I know and love so well, that I was blessed to be part of.
Many of us have learned to cope, I myself have made it a mission to “invent the future” to strive to do good, to be kind, to make a difference for those who will never get the chance. I rarely let anyone know this, it is not something I like to broadcast. but it’s there. always. Living for 32.